In Need Of You Oh Lord

My heart is restless in my my wings are all worn out, I'm walking in the wilderness, but I can not get out. I need you oh I need you, precious Savior, Come. I need you oh I need you! Oh how I need you Lord! I need your perfect word, with tearful eyes I see the sin that I have formed.I need to weep and pray, for all the thousand ways that I have failed you just today.

My bed is soaked with sadness, my sadness has no end. A downward spiral of despair that I keep falling in. I need you oh I need you, I need you Oh I need you! Fill the every longing of my soul! Oh how I need you Lord! I need your perfect word, with tearful eyes I see the sin that I have formed. I need to week and pray for all the thousand ways that I have failed you just today.

Your silence is like death to me.

Oh won't you hear my desperate plee?

Today my soul is soaring way over mountains high, though I can see the valley's they're all just passing by.Its not that I am stronger, look at my feeble wings, but I've been lifted Higher, Yahweh's lifted me in His own strength!I need you oh I need you! To you my soul shall fly, I need you oh I need you! Yahweh how I love you more than life.Oh how I Love you Lord! I love your perfect word. With tearful eyes I see the God who always will endure. Now I can celebrate for all the thousand ways that you have shown me grace,and made my heart in grace sustained, you've made my heart in grace sustained, God make my heart in grace sustained!

Fashion

Fashion

Below I have listed some of my favored online products found from several different Onlinelocations, they would include the following: http://www.freepeople.com/, http://www.lulusfashionlounge.com/, & http://www.forever21.com/. The prices at all three of these stores are rather inexpensive (exception being Free People that can get too pricey for my taste) and the quality and service have been great! I love shopping online and finding killer prices. The Key though is to not obsess and overkill. Online purchases should be well thought out and minimized. I don't recommend making all your purchases online (the shipping and handeling can become pretty costly) but at Lulus fashion and Forever 21 they have a deal that if you spend over a certain amount of money on their site then you will have free shipping! DEAL! Plus they send you free shipping labels if you are in need or returning your purchased items. And as for modesty issues, I've found that its been SUPER easy for me to pick and choose what looks modest (What covers? Is it long enough? Is is see-through? What would my Dad think?) I've also had my dad look over the things I want to purchase and get his opinion on modesty ( I suggest you do this too). They also give you a size chart (great for measuring if something may be too tight in places!).







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http://www.lulusfashionlounge.com/products/Laurens+Big+Brown+Bag/7696.html

http://www.lulusfashionlounge.com/products/Gold+Roped+Colored+Pendants/7139.html



http://www.lulusfashionlounge.com/products/Trinity+Delightful+Dot+Top+in+Brown/7707.html



http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog%5Fname=FOREVER21&category%5Fname=dressy+tops&product%5Fid=2047985172&Page=all

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http://www.lulusfashionlounge.com/products/Solemio+Navy+Seal+Knit+Sweater/7193.html

http://www.lulusfashionlounge.com/products/Seychelles+Round+the+Clock+Red+Leather+Flat/7177.html

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http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog%5Fname=FOREVER21&category%5Fname=rings&product%5Fid=1043110520&Page=1

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A Women's Intuition

"I Think He Likes Me . . .
"I really think he likes me!" Based on what?
"He looked at me a certain way in church last week. . . ""He called me about homework. He could have called anyone, but he chose me. . .""We have so much in common, it just makes sense . . .""We just have this chemistry . . .""He came and sat down next to me at Tuesday's meeting. . .""When we're out with the group, he tries to get me alone. . .""He flirts with me--it's so obvious!"Women's intuition. Is there such a thing? Perhaps we have been given an extra measure of relational discernment. But we take it too far, and it is certainly not reliable when it comes to our own romantic hopes. I once heard a wise pastor explain that there is only one way to know if a boy likes a girl, and it is this: he will tell her that he likes her. Until then, the pastor said, it is safe (and wise) to assume that he doesn't."-Lydia Brewback

This morning as I was looking through some of my favorite blogs, I popped in on the Purple Cellar Blog and found this post labeled "I think he likes me". I laughed as I looked back on my past, and the many times in which I questioned a certain Young Man's motives/intentions towards me, God's Will, and His Sovereignty over that situation in my life. In my singleness I realize now I was not content in SO many many different ways.

Yet, once I let go of all those things (my desires and Hopes for the future) and laid them all before the Lord and stated what is listed below I was pursued!:

"God, you are aware of my desires, and my needs. You know what is best for me at this time in my life. Lord take these feelings and desires away if it is not time, or if it is unappropriate for me to think in these terms. Take my heart and make it fully yours. That I may know the Love of Christ more deeply and more intimately than any other. Make me desire you completely and you only. May I pursue you and a future with you without thought to what my life may look like and what I'd be 'missing out on' by the world's standards. May I reject the World's lies that lead me astray from you and cling to your cross for guidance & strength that I may endure and be steadfast. Lord I desire to trust in your goodness and in your faithfulness and not doubt your sovereign perfect plan. Allow me to catch of a glimpse of understanding your ways, that I may walk out in TRUE faith before you in the midst of my singleness."

We're not famous!!!..err well kinda

Hey Check this out... Christopher and I are on the rebelution site!!

Here:

http://www.therebelution.com/apparel/picture_contest.htm

and here:

http://www.therebelution.com/blog/2008/01/do-hard-things-t-shirt-picture-contest/


Basically I ordered a shirt for both Christopher and I (and Caleb, but he wasn't present for the pictures) and we were asked to take pictures of us in them and then present them to the Harris Brothers for a contest or something... we had a blast and never imagined that these would be uploaded to their site. How fun!

Future Song Idea & More Contemplations.

I want to touch base, its been awhile.

2 things:

1. I'm writing another song about & for Naomi Rose Nichol, shes the Daughter of David & Rebecca Nichols (who are members of our sweet church family here) she was born last year Mid August, and the testimony of her birth is one I believe is powerfully emotional and tells of the Mercy and Kindness of God upon her life. Its something that I would love to put into words for her. I would have liked to have completed it before Christmas, but alas... time was short. I may post it after it has been completed.

2. I recently took my mom to get her haircut and since then have been contemplating a life as a Cosmotologist & Hair Stylist.... Schooling for both would be app. to 3 years at the most for my initial degree. Then I would be under the study of a local Cosmotologist for 6-9 months. I'm seriously praying about it...

Where you at?

Basically I've been seeking counsel from my parents and others in the church about going to school this spring, and I've been praying about it pretty consistently.

Where do I think God is calling me to be at this time in my life?:

I'm pretty set that he wants me still at home still working for the church. I have a desire to take classes and to learn as much as I possibly can, but would I be taking classes for the right reasons? I find that alot of my "desire" to take classes is really a "pressure'' to take classes. This pressure would come from the majority of my friends and family ( not intimate mind you) who find it absolutely absurd to live my life at home with my family and to be working under my father. The lies of this world tempt me to want to make a "name for myself" to be successful, to have a degree so people will think well of me, to prove to the world that I'm not a failure in their eyes because I did go to school and I have a sucessful career as an aftereffect. As of right now I'd be taking these courses for the wrong reasons and what a waste that would in the end be!

But whats the true desire of my heart?:

To love and follow my Lord and Savior. To oneday be a wife and mother who seeks after the things of the Lord and who purposely practices putting into place humility in her life. I want to lay down everything I have and all that I am and all that I lack in being to serve my King. So where am I heading now? Truthfully, I don't know. I will be living at home again for at least another year. I have signed on for another year at least at Crossway I still intend to work for Faith every Wednesday and once a month on Friday nights. I hope to start with serving with the Y&P in the spring and being more purposeful with the younger girls and planning Bible Studies or accountability groups between them. I want to continue to learn and soak in as much as I possibly can from my family, but especially from my mom as she prepares me for my future family. I'm currently working on writing music and recently recording those writtings. After that who knows what God has in store for me. I'm open to anything new and exciting that God has coming my way. I'm excited about life, excited about the future Glory of Jesus Christ.


My Friend said this to me in response to our conversation:

"I can understand the pressures from others about pursuing classes and a position for yourself. In their eyes it seems like you are wasting your time and being foolish. However sometimes God longs for us to do the odd thing and trust in his soverignty and leading. Usually we lack the faith in God and constantly question whether we are following his will. (I do that all the time!) I hope that your faith continues to grow and that you can humbly walk joyfully with God during this time. A verse from Sunday reminded me about the stuff you shared. " I know that you can do all things; no plan of yours can be thwarted." Job 42:2 When you truly reflect on that verse, God's soverignty brings so much peace to our crazy, confusing, and uncertain lives."


MY Thoughts:

So true! Consistenly I fall short and lack faith about following God's will. You see I doubt myself, my own reasoning for doing certain things in hopes that they are what God wills, that I become paralyzed and feel incapable of making any decisions on my own. I want SO badly for God to direct and guide me yet I am so fearful of making a mistake and doing what I want & missing out on what God could have for me. What it comes down to (not so suprisingly) is my Pride and not wanting to see my sin. I'm a proud young woman who HATES to be humbled in and of myself. I desire to be a righteous woman, but I don't want to see where I messed up (my sin) to learn how to turn from it and lead a life of righteousness. I just want it without the sin, without seeing my problems. In all actuality I believe sometimes I want to be God with all of His perfection, and oh boy! I try so hard. I fail to remember that I am being perfected through battling this sin with the Holy Spirit, that I am now counted righteous because of Jesus Christ. I fail to see and remember the grace given to me.

Shh... Its a secret!!

Yes the rumor is true I have indeed started some basic recording again. With my friends Brian & Zach Wetzel who are members of my church family Crossway Fellowship.

Brian is a talented and humble young writer who feels compelled to write lyrics that provoke the Gospel, he has a natural earthy more laid back feel to his style. All of his recent writings revolve around worshiping his Lord & Savior Jesus Christ.

Zach comes along side his older brother with much the same earthy worshipful laid back feel. He brings a level of musical understanding that is both insightful and helpful. He is a rhythmic player, and brings us much laughter as he is constantly joking around. His joy obviously comes from his Love of God. He is a passionate pursuer of righteousness.

I was asked to be apart of this recording after the Wetzel brothers (as I commonly refer to them as) had prayed about it and talked it through. I was humbled by their request to have me apart, I know that they could have found someone more qualified for the task than I some one of their friends perhaps with more talent whose had more experience. I am blessed and honored to be able to join their musical endeavors.

Monday morning we got together in their studio (which is located in their house) and looked through our "options" we actually accomplished more than I thought we would. We designated which songs we would chose to have on the CD practiced several of them and pre-prerecorded one of them.

I have enjoyed this more "laid back" approach to recording. We started with prayer (totally new for me it would have gone totally against "how we did it" in my past recording days.) Seeking the Lords guidance as we begin this new task. We laughed alot as I messed up and we kept singing anyways. Something else new for me... I'm not just singing I am playing the guitar and piano... never done that before. I was surprised to find that i was not nervous about this. God's Grace!

I'm not at liberty to tell you what we are recording currently because yes it is a Christmas surprise :)... You will just have to wait and see. But what I can tell you is that our main goal in recording is to glorify God.

If you do not mind I would LOVE to have prayer for this. That God would use us, use our giftings to provoke the Gospel in the Unbelievers that this will reach or that our lack of gifting would not distract from how God would wish to speak, that we would remain humble and give all the Glory to God. I'm excited to see where this will lead!!